A Tale by Quincy

作詞 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin

作曲 : Jeff Gitty/Quincy Jones/Abel Tesfaye/Daniel Lopatin

Looking back now, I didn't know what it was supposed to be

如今回想起來 往昔該何如已是惘然

And it's like raising kids, man

宛如撫養孩童

If you weren't raised, they don't know how to raise, you know?

若你未褪去稚氣 他們亦不知如何撫養孩童 知否

I just did the best that I could with them because they know ****in' well I love them

我只是盡我所能與他們同在 因為他們深知我沉甸甸的愛

But I didn't do the best I could — I didn't know what the **** I was doing — I didn't

但我沒有盡我所能——我不知過去的自己在做些什麼——我沒有盡全力

I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket and taken out of my home when I was only seven years old

我永遠不會忘記 在我七歲時 看着媽媽被束縛着帶出家門

She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd

她被診斷出患有老年痴呆 並被送進精神病院 讓我爸爸與我和弟弟勞埃德相依為命

I later had an evil stepmother who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother

後來我那邪惡的繼母進一步鞏固了 我不需要母親的想法

Growing up without one had long lasting impressions I didn't fully understand until much later in life

在無人陪伴的成長旅途中 直到晚年我才完全理解往昔種種

It bled into my relationships with family and those I had became romantically involved with

這些那些滲透進我與家人的羈絆 融入我的那些戀人的關係中

Whenever I got too close to a woman, I would cut her off

每與女人走得太近 我就會和她斷絕來往

Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear, but it was also totally subconsious

有帶着報復心理 或基於恐懼 但也完全是潛意識的

Looking back is a bitch, innit?

回首往事真是狗血與惡意滿滿 不是嗎 ^[1]